The inner-self

I've come to realise that there is a little mischievous inner-self in everybody. For the large majority of people this inner voice stays hidden, or whispers only very faintly, when no-one else is within earshot.

Its the same voice that laughs when someone else gets hit in the bollocks, or walks into a lamp post whilst talking on the phone.

For most people this is a reactionary voice. You laugh _after_ that person tripped over the kerb and fell into the bushes. My mind works slightly differently. My mind goes something like "Hmm, if I just moved that rock slightly to the left a bit, and make that hole a little bit deeper...", then steps back to observe the outcome.

I blame the scientist in me. Trained to observe and tinker with the conditions and parameters to get different results. Optimising things as we go. I can become focussed on the immediate central events, not the longer term consequences. Kind of like letting the cold, wet, miserable-looking little cat into the warm dry common room in a certain Abbey, so that it could warm up and dry off. Not stopping for a second to think about how it might not be able to let itself out again should it need to answer a call of nature...

Its not as if I go out with the intentions of causing bad things to happen.

We've all got that dangerous "I wonder what would happen if..." voice buried within ourselves somewhere.

Mine just happens to live quite a bit closer to the outside world, and likes to get out for some exercise every now and then...